Dear God, my heavenly father!  Oh Lord, my heart has been downcast, heavy burdened.  I am worried about Leah but feel too exhausted to help her more.  For whatever little we could do, oh Lord, I praise you.  I thank you, for I truly enjoy helping her and wish to be able to spend more time with her.  Lord, thank you for looking after us.  There were a couple of near-accident situations yesterday, but you kept us safe.  Thank you for helping me finish the work I had to do and thank you for providing a way that at least Leah is not 'attacked' as much as before because we were able to let people know that we would be moving next year and that we would not be in their school any more; and there's no need for them to give Leah a hard time so that we would not stay in their school.  What terrible educators are these and what terrible system is this?!  Yes, I know there are constraint and there is a shortage of resource but how people acted was truly awful from the beginning.  Oh, Lord, you know how I beg for a forgiving heart; I really tried very hard to fully appreciate the difficulty in the system but not to hate the people; but my heart is heavy burdened.  Is this injustice? oppression?  I'd rather not to think this way, but my heart feels heavy.  May you help me and help me lean on your mercy and grace in my time of need.  Lord, I need you!

Oh God, why did you put such an unpleasant and unprofessional person in my way?!  It is super annoying!  Ok, I got the idea that it is not good to take too much risk; not that I was going to take that route for sure.  I said I was going to think about it if that could be an option.  I guess it is safer to sell before buy a house.  It is just a bit of extra work to put everything in storage instead of moving straight to the new place.  I suppose there would be extra packing; not too much more work any way.  Lord, help me to deal this kind of unpleasant encounter, to deal with someone so clueless about his work.  Definitely not going to stay with his as my advisor.  It's not too hard to move to a different branch or even a different bank any way.  Oh God help me.  In Jesus's name I pray, Amen!

Oh, Lord, help me to be more focus and help me rest well so that I could handle the challenge at work and at home.  Lord, should we move?  I have been asking for your guidance on this for quite a few years.  What should I do?  If yes, how should I do it?  May you lead me and guide me.  Help me pray and ask for your guidance in this time of uncertainty.  Help me not wasting more time on games.  Help Leah with her school work.  Please, Lord, give me more strength and renewed focus in helping her grow and leading her to knowing you.  I pray all these in Jesus's name, Amen!

Happy 2018!

Snowflake now you're on your own
I love you, I know you're just here alone
You're best and soon you'll be on your way
There's no one like you, so I'll cry myself here to sleep
I kept you till winter now you won't be needing me

Oh dear God, my heavenly father, on this Christmas day, I rejoice and be glad in your salvation.  Lord, thank you for watching over, protect, and provide for Leah and me in this past year.  I praise you for all your goodness.  Even though there is much struggling and uncertainty, oh, Lord, you always carry us in our hardest moment.  You lead us and guided us and gave us joy even when things got difficult and my heart felt crushed from sadness.  Lord, thank you for your provision and protection for our trip to Toronto this past weekend that everything went well; I was able to find indoor parking at Whitby so that I didn't have to worried about the snow and freezing temperature. Thank you for giving us the room we were looking for, not on too high a floor, but having a nice view of the square and two beds.  Thank you for Janna coming to celebrate Christmas with us. Thank you for our cruise trip with my parents last summer, although even to the last moment we weren't sure if my mom would be able to go with us.  Thank you for her physical strength that she was able to go and also enjoy it a great deal.  Thank you for a great time for all four of us on the cruise.

Lord, may you continue to strengthen me and lead my way.  Give me a heart that seeks your will and feels joy from you and you a lone.  In Christ, Amen!

Oh God, help me, help us.  I was so worried and sad seeing Leah in such pain and was relieved that she soon was completely ok before I call the ambulance.  Now, I am worried that she just faked it because she was unhappy with her teacher because of what he said.  Oh God why do I not trust her?  I often felt that she was under so much pressure and not feeling good about school that she needed to lie to make her life easier.  Is this so?  It just made me sadder not because she lied but because she felt the need to make up things to make her life easier.  If this is the case, how should I help her?  Oh, Lord, may you help her and protect her.  Why is life so hard?  How could I find a way so that I could spend more time with her?  How could I get a job closer to home? What should I do, God.  Please help me.  In Jesus's name I pray, Amen!

主啊，七年前的圣诞节🎄，你给了我一份特别的礼物🎁。她是你给我的祝福和喜乐，也是你给我的功课，请你帮助我做好这份功课，也求你亲自以大能的臂膀保守和引领呀呀，认识你追随你。奉主耶稣之名祈求！❤️

Oh God, forgive me, it was so sad that I yelled at Leah just as she needed encouragement.  Oh, Lord, what is getting into me?  She was really doing her best and I clearly saw she was improving a lot.  What was I yelling at her all about?  Just because she refused to wear a Christmas hat?!  I was so sad to hear her crying; hear her saying that she didn't do well on the stage...what should I do?  And I have to tidy up the house for the cleaners to come tomorrow; and it is going to snow tomorrow.  So much to do; so little time; and I don't feel like doing anything...

Oh God, my heavenly father, I praise you for all the blessings.  Thank you for helping me with my work.  For the first time in my life, my work is not a source of stress any more.  Thank you for making my boss more helpful and agreeable.  Thank you for the baby he and his wife are expecting after much wait and effort.  It made him a happier person and makes my life easier as he does not seem to try to give me a hard time at work any more.  I thank you for the business you have blessed our group.  Everybody is busy with new deals and things they like to do.  Thank you for the job you provided for my cousin's son G.  Thank you for answering his mom's prayer.  She said she prayed for this and promised she would believe you if you could give her son a job.  Oh, Lord, you are merciful.  You will speak to her heart in a way she could understand at this stage of her phase.  May you be please and continue to lead her with your mighty hand and outstretched arm.  As I pray to you with a grateful heart with joy, I continue to ask you to help Leah with her school situation.  Lord, please take the bitterness out of my heart because I felt she is mistreated by her teachers.  I lift the situation in your good hand and trust that you will protect her and help her grow in a less-than supportive environment.  God, you are just yet merciful.  Help me remember the mercy you have given me so that I am able to be merciful and forgiving.  Help me fully rely on your for Leah's future.  Help me to be gentle and kind to her as I ask her to be gentle and kind to others.  Give me more patience.  Help me keep my temper in check.  I pray all these in Jesus's name. Amen!

Oh God, I need help!  Where's my help?!  My body is falling apart.  How could I get better physically?  I'm so tired...

Dear God, my heavenly father!  Thank you for all your blessings and provision.  Although my heart has been so heavy as if under a big rock, you have been with me.  Your presence comfort me.  You have made things relatively easy so far and I seem to have a clear direction in terms of the move next year.  Oh, Lord, may you continue to lead me and strengthen me.  Lord, I thank you for the progress Leah seems to be able to have.  Lord, give me more patience and love for her.  Forgive me for my outburst of temper.  Oh, Lord, remind me that she's yours and she the most important responsibility you have entrusted me.  Help me!  In Jesus's name I pray, Amen!

Oh God, my heart is so heavy!  I don't know what to do.  I don't know if I am imagining things.  This is definitely a situation I cannot deal with.  Oh Lord, may you provide.  Please help us.  It sounded final that Leah would need to change school, but I don't know when, how.  I feel so strongly that she's starting to making progress and she's trying harder, but I heard different thing.  I do feel that she's getting moodier than I expected.  Is it stress from FI or just this school; or they way they are treating her?  I feel so strongly that we should definitely move, but selling a house is such a daunting task.  Not impossible, of course.  I don't know if I should let her try a new FI school or switch to English track.  Given the amount of work she has been doing at home, I am truly glad with her progress.  Apparently it is not enough.  I thought she is growing into like it more now.  I don't think she's in an encouraging enough school environment though.  Lord, my Lord, please help us.  Please help me make the right decision, help us move smoothly.  I Jesus's name I pray Amen!

Lord, may you help us!  The only way I could give Leah enough help is that I don't have to work and have more time to spend with her.  She just needs me and we are not able to spend enough time together during the week.  She has been in day care for too long.  It seems a lot of the classroom behavioral problems she's been having are caused by not having enough attention from me.  Poor kid.  Only you know what she has been through away from me. Oh, Lord, what could we do?  May you help Leah grow in maturity.  May you help her.  And may you help us.  In Jesus' name I pray! Amen!

Dear God, my heavenly father!  I lift up Leah in your good hands.  School has been a real struggle.  I thought she behave a little unusual today.  Indeed, there was a teacher's note on her school work.  She must have really worried that she even behaved so differently.  I cannot imagine the stress she's under.  What should I do, oh, Lord.  On the one hand, I really do not want her be so affected by the school and/or teachers she has experienced so far.  On the other hand, I have indeed noticed that even I have a hard time to get motivated to study.  She has studied so little; of course, she couldn't keep up.  I will have a real patience and gentle discussion with her.  But what should I do, oh, Lord.  How could I help her?  May you help her.  May you soften her heart so that she would listen and do what she needs to do to keep up with her school work.  She has not had much interest in school; actually much of anything.  Should I push her hard to understand the basics of learning and what is expected of her?  Oh, Lord, help us!  In Jesus's name I pray.

First Day of the Second Grade

Oh Lord, help me not play more games and waste more time.  Every time I get on this computer, help me write a prayer to you instead of playing games.

Lord, I pray for Jiaojiao and her family.  Lord, I trust you have given her peace and that she's with you free of pain and suffering. Lord, I did not communicate with her in her last moment in this world.  Am I wrong in doing that?  Did I not pray enough for her and her family.  Lord, may you have mercy and forgive me, if I failed to do my part as a Christian in her life.  Lord, help me pray more for her family in the following days.  Teach me how to pray and help me pray.  In Jesus's name, Amen!

Free to be responsible: to serve the will of God

Enslaved to the irresponsibility of sins

Slave to righteousness vs. slave to sinful nature

Took today off to do some tests for my left foot.  Hope it is not too bad but I have a bad feeling it's not going to be good.  Such is life.  I think I am feeling quite down lately; now this happened.  Why me, God, why?!  Why is my life so hard?  And my health is going downhill; I can feel it; I am not doing anything everyday to help.  My daily routine is ruining my life; I know it. Now I might have to be more serious about my diet for medical reasons.

Just lost it when Leah kept getting out of bed and running around after 9 pm.  Why is this so difficult?  Is it because she kept talking for almost an hour in bed after I finished reading her the bedtime story.  Maybe I should've required her to be quiet to get ready for sleep.  Poor thing, cried herself to sleep after I yelled and screamed at her.  I have to think about how I am dealing with her.  I feel I am too lenient, which inevitably leads to something I cannot take any more.

Amos 5:24 But let justice roll on like a river, righteousness like a never-failing stream! 

Revelation 22:13, 16, 20-21 I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End. “I, Jesus, have sent my angel to give you this testimony for the churches. I am the Root and the Offspring of David, and the bright Morning Star.” He who testifies to these things says, “Yes, I am coming soon.” Amen. Come, Lord Jesus. The grace of the Lord Jesus be with God’s people. Amen. 

Revelation 1:8 “I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.” 

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2017 Winterlicious -- Bosk

Bosk

This signature restaurant at Shangri-La Hotel Toronto, brings to life freshly harvested ingredients from a network of selected local and global suppliers. Diners can expect an Asian inspired cuisine, but still distinctly Canadian, served with genuine and caring service.

Cuisine: Asian, Canadian, Fusion

Albacore Tuna
Tartar, wasabi tobiko, sesame + ginger dressing, cilantro

Chowder 

Potato and leek soup, clams, mussels, bacon, celery

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Heritage Breed Pork Shoulder 
De Puy lentils, carrot, salsify, béarnaise

Poached Pickerel (fish)
Bok choy, sweet potato noodle, yuzu-ginger dashi

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Chocolate Rum biscuit, feuilletine, chocolate cremeaux, espresso ice cream

Gingerbread Caramelized apples, ginger mousse

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